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Chronic fatigue catch 22

I'm taking some punishment at the moment from my symptoms. Here's a thing:

- I wake up feeling quite under the weather - the brain doesn't want to get started, it's not good.
- I know I need to thoroughly relax and let myself wake up carefully.
- I have the thought "I don't want to feel like this yet again".
- I get kind of stuck in the thought and it will not let me relax.
- I need to let go and then I will feel OK. I can't let go.
- Now I get stuck in "trying" to let go. This makes this more difficult because I can't "try" to do anything with my brain all fogged up and not-quite-right.
- But I need to relax.
- But I don't want to be like this.
- And so on.

So I learn patience and the waiting begins.

Another word for equanimity


I also liked quiescent, imperturbable, abiding (especially calm abiding), contented but balanced seems to be best. Are you balanced? Is anyone?