Chronic fatigue - forward, forward, backward, backward

One thing I'm slowly learning is that it takes a long, long time to make progress with a chronic fatigue illness and that any progress you do make can be wiped out in a moment - tricky to live with you might muse. So, we go forwards a bit and then we go backwards a bit, and we have our minds and emotions to deal with. I remember a quote from Thoreau (I might have misremembered) where he states that he was "perfectly ill" - meaning his illness was his illness and it was perfect just the way it was. A lot of the trouble comes with the mind resisting the illness. You know the score: it shouldn't be like this, not this again, I'm not sure I can take much more of this. This is reactivity and makes things a whole lot worse than they should be.

This is the thing to look out for then. Your illness has flared up again - how are you reacting to it? What assumptions has it upturned? Was is it saying about you? What life had you been building around your magical recovery? Keep an eye on these thoughts and see where they lead ...

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