Showing posts from April, 2012

Chronic fatigue - wellness is a discipline

If you've had chronic fatigue for a while then you've probably realised that the days of 'doing what you like' are a somewhat distant memory. Life is about pacing yourself, gently increasing activities, being cautious, paying attention to your symptoms and generally keeping a tight lid on things. Feeling OK correlates with being well disciplined in mind and body. We might feel that we have lost out on freedom but what have we gained? To keep things snappy, I think we gain a lot of awareness. 

Awareness and mindfulness are excellent skills that are a gateway to a different way of being in the world. The more we pay attention the more we realise what is harmful and beneficial to us. Once we realise this then we become free to choose how we want to experience the world. So, in a sense we lose the freedom to 'do what we like' and gain the freedom to 'choose how we relate to life'. This is no small gain and it leads to all kinds of new vistas.

It's not e…

Try to hear every single raindrop fall

We finally have some rain and there's something calming about sitting indoors with the pitter patter of raindrops outside the window. There's a number of different things you can do with this experience but paying attention to sounds is a good one to try.

So then, you have a comfortable sitting position and the rain is lightly falling outside. Now try to hear every single raindrop as it makes it's contact with the ground, window or roof. You might think this is impossible but give it a try. Open your mind, open your ears. You might have a moment where you hear everything all at once. That's it! The mind then jumps in and tries to grab the experience - then you hear nothing at all. Now notice yourself jumping from the awareness of sounds back into a stream of thoughts. Flow and blockage. Openness and contraction.

You might find this interesting and you might not. The seeds of deeper awareness are sown here. 

Rest in the gaps

Although everyday life might seem like one continuous event as we move from one activity to the next, a crafty chronic fatigue sufferer will recognize that the events of the day ebb and flow. We might even recognize that there are gaps as we end one thing and start another. These gaps are an excellent place to find some relaxation and reconnect to the steady mind that brings healing and rejuvenation.

Once you get used to noticing gaps, you might start to notice them everywhere. As we sit in meditation, we might notice that a bunch of thoughts start tormenting us, then they stop (for a brief nanosecond), before the same thoughts repeat themselves to us (as if we needed to live through them again) or some new thought sequence appears. As we notice these gaps, we might like to hang out in them and get a feeling for what it is like to be between our nagging mind conversations.

Once we hang out in these gaps, we might notice that there is something noticing the gaps; namely, our awareness.…

Pleasure - the law of diminishing returns

First time - Nice
Second time - Getting not so nice
Third time - Neither nice nor unpleasant
Fourth time - Getting quite tedious
Fifth time - Unbearable, time for something new

This refers to a particular set of pleasures - generally things we experience through the senses. We might like to explore pleasures that do not get tiresome the more we experience them. Are there any?