Can you identify it right now? Does it bring you lightness, delight? Perhaps you feel that you don't need it. What does that suggest?
Where do you go for refuge from the world? Perhaps you don't have anything like this. What does this suggest?
It can be a relief to have something positive to return to when you need it. Something non-threatening, enjoyable, refreshing. Should we feel guilty about having something like this in our lives? Absolutely not. Find your oasis and lavish yourself in its rejuvenating essence. There are no prizes for doing things the hard way.